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Gifted with the great skill of procrastination, here is a post I should’ve posted 3 weeks back. Got some updates.. but here is the original post. Do pardon, I was also gifted with the skill of messing up my grammar.

Yesterday I had my first ever job interview. Yep, took me that long to reach the interview stage. Meh. Anyway, it was.. Hmm, for a lack of better judgement, dreadful.

I was quite confident before the interview itself. I had the hope of nailing it because I asked around.. you know, what sort of questions they typically ask and how intimidating the interviewer can be. So I gathered all the confidence I can manage and rehearsed some answers up in my head. Yep. So just imagine my horror and frustration when I blew it. MEEHH.

The first part of the interview was actually okay, thoughts were pooling in my head and I was able to organize them somehow. I *believe* I managed to answer decently.

I can’t remember exactly how/why I messed up, maybe it’s because of a question I didn’t think I’d encounter. Plus the interviewer was really listening, she brought up my answers and said “But you said earlier.. So, what do you mean by?” (awful backfire) I was so sure that I was thisclose to introducing her to my knuckles but wtv. Could’ve been my fault anyway— I’m not a good liar and I don’t know how to advertise myself (if there is actually something I can advertise,).. or sell, more so. Ergo, I have to learn how to be an effective liar and ass kisser.

Well anyway, I should’ve posted mental notes prior to that interview, that I should never, ever, ever show any form of hesitation re: the post. I was pretty sure I messed up that part. She gave me the option to say no (because I mentioned I was more of the diagram BA type than that of a software developer,) and discuss other positions with me. I answered “What other positions are there?” and she was like ”You have to say no to the ASE position first before we discuss other options.” Got more intimidated when she said ”I don’t mean to scare you, I’m just going to be honest; The position you’re applying for is more of that heavy application programming, so..” Blah blah blah. Got scared like shit.  ”I don’t mean to scare you.” Pakyu. You meant to scare me. You had each and every intention of scaring me away. I was scared shitless. But I still said yes anyway. Boohoo.

Also, I realized how important it is to gather and compose them thoughts first (make sure that your thoughts are complete) before blabbing about them, even if it’ll take you longer to answer. I swear I was thisclose to speaking gibberish. MEHH. And, her eyebrows arch whenever I answer nonsense, which is like every time. Nadurog ako, putangina. Bahahaha. :))

So overall, I think the interview was dreadful…

BUUUUUUTTTT!!! I GOT TO SPEND TIME WITH FRIENDS! I was really really happy! Ecstatic! Elated! Euphoric! <3

We made kwento and kulit. It feels so so so nice to know that some people still enjoy your presence. And whatever it is I encountered earlier re: the interview, OMG nakuha ko na lang tawanan with friends (Altho I had the longest face otw to school because of that interview.)

Nabawi lahat ng pagod ko for three days, just imagine how exhausted I was. Last sunday I was in Pangasinan with my family, I was in technohub the next day and tuesday, I was in Makati, Mandaluyong and then Manila. Had to head back to Makati today because I had to continue an exam (I didn’t feel like I had much choice. It was always easier for me to fight the fatigue than fight the guilt.) Everyday was to and fro, considering I’m from Pampanga, it was really really exhausting. Felt like crap. Had less than 4 hours of sleep/night. Pero just like what I said, friends made bawi of the pagod I had. Nasabi ko nga sakanila na “DINAIG KO PA YUNG NABASTED EH! ANO BA YAN!” they answered, “BAKET? NABASTED KA NA BA?” Haha. Alright. You guys have a point. It felt like it eh, bakit ba? Sorry for the unending and animated kwentos. Hihi. ;) <3

On other news: I received a computer generated text from the company, it mentioned that I passed the interview and that I have to head back to Mandaluyong again tomorrow. I don’t get it, though; I’m pretty sure I blew up that interview and the interviewer’s tone clearly indicated disapproval and disappointment. Meh. But thank You so so much po, Papa Jesus! Love you to bits :D

On other other news: I signed the job offer. Submitted pre-employment requirements.. And why do some people find it surprising that I’m an ASE? What’s wrong with me being an ASE? Ha? Ha?

On other other news: If everything goes well, I might be going through a battery of interviews and revoke the contract. Prayers will help, thank you! :) Very very grateful! :) Thank You Papa God! :) That in all things, God may be glorified. :)

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